Oh 6 months ago

It was a Friday Night 6 long, but short months ago.
I dont even know where to begin and say how much my life has changed. Its been crazy. I still wake up and want it to be a dream. I miss him more now then ever. I love when random thoughts about me and him pop into my head. He will always be in my heart and the man who completed me. Those blue eyes and that big nose :) man how i miss that face!!! It still blows my mind that on deployment morning, He looked at me and said "Babe we got this, dont worry I'll see ya in 7 months." He really had no fear!! And I loved that about him. He knew what he had to and he was just being the brave, honest, amazing marine he was!

So being the widow at 6 months.
Everyday is different. Today sucked. The day before was great. You honestly just never know. The people you think can help and cheer you up, really cant! But i still LOVE all you guys!!!

I will give myself credit, Ive done alot more then I thought I would. I've kept my head up and I'll be honest I really think I'm doing alot better at six months of my husbands death, then alot of my friends do with their everyday relationship problems(and NO this isnt meant for anyone person, so dont think that, im just saying this is how I feel.). Weird, and sometimes i think something is wrong with me, but this next thing helps me know that I am normal and I loved my husband more then anything!!!!

Curtis & I didnt get alot of time together, but the time we did, I fell in love with a man that taught me so much. He was honestly one of the greatest people I knew. Besides from all the bad luck we both had, He always told me that no matter how bad it got, someone somewhere had it worse and to always no matter what keep my head up!! So the day I got the news, I remembered him saying that, so I havent let him down yet!!!

Even though these 6 months have passed I still remember him and will always. <3