Gettin used to it. or Not so much.

I miss cami's. I miss seeing them. I miss seeing him in them.

This time last year I was a new wife. We were spending the little time we had left together before he deployed. Living with Kelly and Tony (thank you guys for that, you will never know how much it meant to us) It was AMAZING being married to Curtis. He was amazing. I love everything we ever did together. 

But Anymore its pictures, after pictures, letters, after letters. MEMORIES. which i wouldnt trade for the world but him actually being here would be better. I know he's in a better place and what he did for his family and this country is a one of a kind thing. but I miss him and wish he was here!

Oh 7 months is approaching and everyday i hate it even more. Nothing gets better with time, I really dont understand that. To me, you just get used to him not being here. You never stop missing him or wanting him here. Just like everything else you just get used to it. or wait, Not so much.